Does anybody know where I can get some patience?

I seem to run out everyday before 8, so I would like to pick some up somewhere...anybody? Bueller?

I'd like to think of yesterday as a trial run on not showing anger to my children. What it really did was hone in on the point that I am losing my temper and NOT instructing my children in the ways of the Lord. Sometimes, if I am honest, (which I almost always am, much to the disdain and embarrassment of my poor mother) the sound of my childrens' voices whining, "mmooooooommmm!" makes my skin crawl. But today has been better.

Have you seen the Divine Secrets of the Ya-Ya Sisterhood? There is this scene where the mom has four children all puking and crapping and crying, "MOMMY!", and she starts yelling, "LEAVE ME ALONE!" and totally freaks out, has a nervous breakdown and leaves her family. Here's the clip:



I could not believe how terrible she was the first time I saw this movie. CLEARLY it was in my pre-kid days when I knew all the answers, had parenting figured out and just *knew* that motherhood would fulfill my deepest longing.

Is anyone else rolling their eyes? NOW, I totally get how she felt. I felt that way when I had ONE child. Motherhood has a very humbling experience.

For some reason, I didn't put up a fight when Joel said he coudlnt take Jack to school this morning. Mostly because it meant I didn't have to rush around to get him ready at 7 am. Yup, that's right. I'd rather have him home all day than have to move quickly and exert energy before 9am. Dont get me wrong, I LIKE him, I just like him better when he burns some energy somewhere else.